searching the extrodinary in something ordinary

Thursday, April 27, 2006

You know sometimes life is funny in a way that you only get what you want when u decided not to pursue it. Wanted to have an outing on Saturday for dinner since was thinking i probably want to spend at least the last half of sunday with parents sempena my birthday. that and i was planning on trying to go vegetarian on Sunday. But since most ppl can't make it on Sat i finally resolved to sit at home and enjoy a nice rest while watching finals for some superstar competition and move dinner to sunday. So i was actually happily settling down not planning to go out on Saturday night alr. And then suddenly michelle calls and asked me if i wanted to go clubbing coz her 2 friends i met last week when we had lunch asked if i would like to go. And then suddenly i dunno how i feel about this. Its not that i don't want to go, coz i do. But sometimes there are moments that catches me when i look at this and ask whats the point really and then they are days i am revving to go.
So i am afraid that that moment decides to show itself on that day. But then again i enjoyed the last trip to poppy so i am hoping i do this time. But really i guess its partly the company too.

Rae, i know what you gonna say. Why think so much right. But no matter how much has change somethings don't really go away. They just go into hiding till the next time. But then again have i ever turned down an opportunity to explore? I am sure i have but not all the time. Aiya i miss my form one days la. Just do first think later. But that one also is a concious effort to do that. If you can actually believe me, one fateful day in form one i did tell myself. "heck it, think so much for what? just do first la" And those were to stupidest but most carefree days of my life. Born a thinker always a thinker la.

But anyways siao la, wanna go clubbing also can spout so many nonsense. Don't let that fool you i am as ready as ever to go ha ha ha. Maklumla not always get to go. Now what to wear..... :P

Actually i realized this lementation not about going clubbing la. Its about life only giving you what you want when u are not pursueing it anymore. Ah what ever la. I need to get out more often. But then again i need more hours in a day. Damn it, i have tons of things to do. Sigh are engineers doomed to be nerds? Even the clever one that was no where near being a nerd has turned into one. Ask you la, how can measily me not be more nerdier. Sigh wondering if i should have taken this from the begining. There are days when i like what i am doing and there are days when i am thinking of doing something else than engineering once i graduate. I am really loosing my spirit. Where art thou spirit?

Ah radomness.