searching the extrodinary in something ordinary

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sigh..... i think you can say that the lack of post here is reflective of my current condition of a lack of opinion. I somehow happen to find it oddly hard to express myself in a sense that i am firstly at a lost for proper words to string a proper sentence or a lack of ability to make the sentence make sense. And so therefore affecting me to have a lack of opinion or rather a lack of energy to verbalize my opinion. I think i need someone to practice speaking on. Any takers? Well i do find i need to address this problem seriously. But not now i guess... i am too busy worrying about the gargantuan amount of work i need to cover whithin the time frame of less than a month.
Now that could be part of the problem too i guess since that is about like a huge portion taking my attention at a given moment. So today i was sitting as i was having breakfast with daphi and michelle and they were like talking about stuffs like the 9/11 conspiracy theory and fashion shows and all. I sort of just sat there and listened finding words or opinions i would have liked to give but finding none. Then i was thinking hey is it that i have no knowledge of this subject and the answer that came back was really "i am not sure". I mean it is not as if i don't really know but then is not that i am super knowlegable either. But somehow i guess this convo which was started one day when i sat down to lunch with my resident class smarty pants just happen to be nagging me. This guy used to be the kinda guy which does not fit one bit into being nerdy or be associated with scholarly persuits. The kind which i would presume has "fun" as a middle name. But now when he meets up with his old bunch of friends he happen to find that they no longer have a commmon ground of conversation. All he wants to talk about is robots and stuffs related to what he does now. And all they talk about is kids (which some of them unsruprisingly has acquire) and computer games. And I couldn't accept that. For such a long time I have always believed in having a wide scope of knowledge for a wide scope of conversational topic and now i am afraid i might be turning into a one dimensional person. Oh god that is a scary thought. There is more to life isn't it? Besides work and more work. But somehow that has seem to taken over my part of the life even if i have no interest in putting it into a conversational topic. But the only problem being I have no time to update myself with whatever else which has been happining around that, well i don't have a choice but to keep quiet. And no i seriuosly don't find the prospect of sitting around with a bunch of engineers all the time and only disecting the parts of our research that is on going eventhough it must be done once in a while to enhance our scholarly persuit one bit appetizing. But that is a sad thought.

So there you have it. The thoughts that have been churning around my head for the past couple of weeks while i haven't updated.

On another matter this article has me thinking. ( well i do have an opinion now don't i !). Its really interesting how people tend to press their opinions on others. Quite a big chunk of comments on the page actually ridicules her for keeping her chastity. Acting as if they know it all and she is just some naive little girl that stares wide eyed at the mention of sex. It is a choice to be made and at the tone of her post she is concious of her raging hormones too. So she should be given credit for making a stand for her believe. The way I see it the life is your's live it the way you see fit as long as u know what you are getting yourself into. Some might want to indulge in their needs and some might have a different set of needs that needs indulging in. Just as long as you are happy. In other words why the fck you bother who is fcking and who is not.


At 12:11 AM, Blogger Rae said...

Ehm, me thinks your lack of opinion is due to the fact I'm not there to provoke you.

Not that I think so highly of myself, but more like, I know how annoyingly stubborn I can be. Enough to let our conversations be the muse of that guy who sits next to us at Maersk. Remember him trying very hard to conceal his laughter to our very loud and errr ridiculously opinions from lip sync-ing to dance classes to urm, work ethics? Or some shit like that.

I miss having to terrorise you with my nonsensical and neverending rants about err, everything basically.

But really, I still think you put way too much pressure on yourself to perform, or maybe you've acquired that from your ohsosmart coursemates.

Perhaps that could also be the reason why you're just so brain-drained that you just don't give a fuck anymore.

No worries, I'm coming home soon to urm, unload my truckload of shit onto your limited tub. Then maybe you will pull out the stopper and let everything drain out a bit.

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