Had lunch with the almost usual bunch today at the cafeteria sans a few ppl. And what you talk about when there is food around? Well food :P. But that wasn't really the reason we talked about food anyway. We were discussing on where to have lunch 2morrow. And since 2morrow is the last day of the work week before the end of the year, jun heng suggested we eat somewhere nicer to have a pre-celebration. Since we wont see each other till next year.

But oh well when it comes to talk of food, and there is girls there most of the time the word diet will come up. I have to admit i am guilty of such, at one time or another. But all those are just talk, well at least i think so. I eat anyway, in moderation at least. Diets, i have been through a few "not eating" episodes when i was much younger. But those are just a couple of days kind of thing or a skipped dinner or lunch here and there. I wasn't at any point even close to aneroxic if i can say so myself. Unless of course Rae might wanna add anything to that. I used to tell her i enjoy the feeling of hunger. Hmmmm does that sounds aneroxic? I can't really explain. But she used to look at me like i was nuts. I was a small eater anyway. My family is, therefore i am. So sharing meals with friends were pretty normal with me until Rae of course. Her family is the epitome of live to eat (:P dont kill me) So for her sharing is out of the question as the basic meal is probably just scratching the surface. But after hanging with her long enough, i turned into a monster :P. Ha ha ha ( seriously i hope i dont get killed) But i think i am still consider a small eater as compared to the rest.

Anyways back to dieting. So this girl which most of us, including oon ee has been exasperated enough time explaining to her she doesn't need to diet, started complaining that if we went to get nicer food, that she can't eat coz she was on a diet. Ah well old habit die hard. Any sane human who sees her will agree with us that the last thing she needs to do is diet. She is just about right, right now. And bad enough she is petite, if she lost anymore weight she would fly with the wind. Sigh. This kinda nonsense really gets to me sometimes. Abit of a kill joy. This actually happened before a few days back when i asked her when she wants to go on a celebration dinner for us getting HD for our group project. When i suggested dinner since it is more convenient that way, after work and all she shot it down saying she doesnt eat dinner. Another form of her diet. Ah well if dinner is out and looking at this, lunch is another diet plan forget about the celebrations. Kill joy, kill joy, kill joy.

Anyway, she seems so bent on dieting that she has been talking about dieting for as long as i can remember. And for some one that doesnt need it, it is a little too much a little too long. But i guess i should " not borrow other ppl's problem" Its just that this kinda thing just gets to me a little, how society molded all this girls into unhealthy dieters. I still say if you want to loose weight eat right and exercise. Otherwise just don't bother trying to be stick thin. And for the guys that like stick thin girls and wouldnt bother otherwise. Screw you!

But so far i see the trend with my circle of friends, are either they don't bother or they are trying to plump up their girlfriends. But plumping up might be slightly of another issue. So love us for who we are ,fats, celulite and all. And girls be proud of your body and do things the right way. Not eating is just going to kill your metabolic rate. Eat in moderation. Just make sure u eat.

Counting now, i realize that it was almost three years back that i was working in coffee bean. That was right before i started my 1st year. Seems like such a long time ago putting it that way. But going by memory it just doesnt feel that long.
Ever since i worked there, I think i could count with my fingers how many times i went back. At first it was partly because of how sick i was of that place after being there almost every other day for 3 months. Then it was mostly because i couldn't really afford it. I did not visit any other coffee bean outlets more than my finger can count either. But i do like their coffee alot
So last week i went back there to get myself an ice blended which i had a voucher for from the cleo birthday bash goodie bag. You can't imagine how happy i was to see that peice of paper. I like normal coffee but good coffee is just a little more different. But they are expensive so i stick to my kopi bings and nescafe 3 in 1. So i think you can imagine the heaven it was working there in this point of view. But..... there is always a but, more on that later. So i since i went shopping alone, i decided to get my ice blended around the time i was to leave. Hmm well walking in there was like, " hey i used to be the one behind the counter". And " hey, i wonder how the kitchen looks like now". Then i realized i kinda missed working there abit. Not that the days there weren't shitty. But life is about taking all the shits and turning it into experiences i guess. I know everytime someone mentions working there again, i shiver at the thought. And the night shifts is really hell. You have to clean up the whole place, put the tables and chair in the shop (a lot of arm exercise there), wash everything up including the drain, bring in all the cakes and the list goes on. And they dont pay you for the hour that u take to do that because they think we are superhumans. But the esperience really depends on who is ur manager. I had mostly 3/4 of the time or more worked with shitty to slightly shitty managers of the day. But the main manager is the absolute heaven to work with. Unfortunately i don't see her often enough.
But all in all, i guess working is a good experience. Teaches us to treat ppl better, I think everyone should really get this kinda a job. Especially spoilt brats that think the world revolves around them.

I know i left the post before this hanging. It was suppose to be saved as a draft but i accidently posted it. Anyways i will update that later. As of now i would like to post a hopefully thought provoking post. I know i haven' really posted much of those lately. but i can assure u that, that doesn't mean i haven't been thinking. In fact i have been thinking lots. Just that i did less of brooding over the issue. I just don't want to be constantly having a heartbreaking feeling following me around. I have enough of those alr. So that basically means that once i sit down to blog. Which doesn't get to happen too often now adays. Which doen't help the situation one bit, I forget what i wanted to say.

But this thought has been hovering around for quite some time now. So I decided it is about time I put it down in words. So here goes.

You know how it is that as you grow older ppl around you grow older as well. Sometimes we fail to notice this. Wishing to think that our parents will still and always remain how we remember them to be when we were the kids that was without a care. This applies to those with grandparents as well. We just forget that they grow old too. Well i think one way or other i did too until one day you just finally realize that they really aren't as young as they use to be anymore. More white hairs, more wrinkles and illnesses and all. The thought is pretty depressing.

Like i say, this thought has been hovering over my head for some time, but just recently, michelle's grandma was admitted to the national heart institute for blocked arteri. The initial diagnosis was that its not a big deal and she just needs to be there for observation. Then the other day, they say she needs to be operated on for one arteri. But when the brought her in to the operating theatre, they found that they couldnt operate yet because there was 3 arteri blocked instead. She tried to call me for some one to talk to, but regretfully i did not hear the phone. I called back later, and found out about that. I am really worried for her and her grandma.

As of late I really have developed a phobia of people dieing on me. Its not really to do with the whole tons of ppl died around the world disastor thing. But i think i really have my fill of family deaths for the yr and even the time being. Thinking about it, the way they went gave enough room to not be paralyzed with grief, since it was the better way out, than the option of living and suffering. They are hopfully at a better place now.

And thinking about it, the time we had together was long enough to develop fondness but short enough to have a slight disattachment. And thus thinking about this, i wonder how my mom felt as they were her parents. The kind of slight disattachment i feel can never apply to her. And from there i wonder how i will handle it when it comes my turn. But besides that, it has come to a point now that, i find myself thinking, pls don't let anyone i know go anytime soon, because i really don't know how to handle another one. And i mean anyone at all.

They say life is about birth and death. And i get it. Just let me get my bearings before anymore stuffs happens. And make it a good long time.

What a weekend. Havent had an early night at home. In fact i havent been home for a whole night. The hols is really something. But top it with working and its a whole new ball game. Since the day is all spent in the office, the only time to come out and play is during the night.

As for this weekend, it was Michelle's bday on friday. But since she was suppose to be in genting, no actual celebration was planned. But because of her grand ma having some arteri problem they came back earlier because all of them were worried sick. So finally we manage to catch up with her to give her her bday present and get her to blow out the candles for her 21st on the actualy day itself.

this was the watch we got her

tiramisu

oh i just finally discovered i can log in to blogger using this comp at the office. Currently waiting for break time coz me and another person is suppose to double check for rejects in the die. So i rather let him go 1st. Hopefully he doesnt have the same idea.

Anyway I finally got to see the pics from Rae's cam which was all from last yr. (But still got some missing just in case u didn't realize Rae ;P But i know u are busy so take ur time. But don't make it another yr ya :P) Anyways, congrats girl you are finally a graduate. So proud of ya.

And back to the pics. Wow that was alot of memories from last yr. Looking at the pics just makes it seem so wierd this yr since Rae is not around. Its seriously so wierd, something missing. Its like i keep seeing Rae in the pic, and the current round of pic is lacking so many people. Its like so quiet alr *sob*. Even now laine is back in Melaka. So its just the 5 of us for the hols. Not as noisy a group anymore. I really wonder when will this ever be possible again. Since the mid yr hols even with Rae coming back (And i really hope you do!) Suet might not come back. But accordind to her she will miss her family too much not to come back. But who knows ;P who she might miss over there if she had come back. And then Laine might come back to KL but she will be working by then. Jin Hui wont be back. But that is another story. Daphi will be working as well. *SOB* I am rambling. Sigh ..... But anyhow, whatever it is, i still wanna spend time with you Rae. I also miss those days when you just crave for whatever you crave for and we two crazy fella go and cari makan. At the mean time i will be trying very hard to loose weight to keep up with ur raging appetite.Those are really good old days.

photo posting for the rest coming up soon

This is the pic of the show i am so crazy for. This is my third time watching. But i only watch all the dance parts so ;)

Sigh, sigh , sigh. Am watching innocent steps, a korean movie for th 2nd time. This time with subtitlescoz the 1st time i didnt know i was suppose to turn it on. I know there will be many cringing. I know how some of u feel about korean movies. Most of them that are teeny booperish love comedy are running on so old a plot you could almost narrate the whole show urself.

But rest assured this is no typical goofy love hate affair where guy hates girl/girl hates guy and then wham bam thank you and the next moment they discover miraculously that they do love each other. Innocent step makes much more sense then that. In fact there isnt really a wham bam thank you kinda love affair but one that is actually slightly gut ranching and sense making. But above all else, what can really make me fall in love with a show more than anything is the dance scenes. It is just absolutely breath taking. And the song that they use for the dance is also absolutely touching.

Not withstanding this show, it has been a long time that i wanted to take up latin dancing. Especially rhumba and salsa. I really like how emotional the dance is. Especially rhumba which is suppose to be the dance of love. So my future husband better not have two left foot or that will be very sad. Now i have one more detail to add to my wedding besides wanting to play T's song which i forgot the title, i want to dance rhumba with my husband during the wedding reception as our 1st dance. Omg i can't believe i am actually planning my wedding alr. Looks like this kinda stuff can't escape even me of all person. Sigh ......

At the mean time i need to decide if i want to continue with hip hop or move on to latin. But both also means having to come up with money which i have limited of.

omg the comp that i have is so freaking slow. Anyways somehow i am being made to eat my words about notbeing able to blog in the office since i am doing this for the 2nd time in a row today. The reason for this is because after half day worth of training to do cross sectioning i am left with another half a day that is free. My supervisor thinks i deserve a rest. So here i am supposedly taking this time to write my report but am actually multi tasking e.g blogging and *ahem* reading some acedemic related stuffs.

I guess i am not complaining since i get to use the comp anyway. So far i have been reading on the GPS stuffs(which i now learnt is different from GPRS one being Global Positioning system and the latter being General Packet Radio service) since i am interested to see if it can be used for one of my ideas. Will see how much i can gather from the internet and if i get any more bright ideas on how i can use it. Feel like perhaps expanding the tracking robot to higher technology. But that is just my thoughts. Nothing t do with the project group that I was with. Though a simple infra red signal was enough fr us to get a HD. But i am not complaining really. And the obstacle avoidance system can use some work as well. It was actually still buggy when we demoed. But that could be due to our infrared reciever which was playing havoc with our microcontroller due to the sucky mounting which is actually my fault anyway. Oops! thought the way we secured it was good enough to avoid short circuits.

As random as it is, since i mam typing this not in a continous time mode, i decided to give a simple japanese lesson today. Not sure who is this going to benefit but at least it will help me to remember some of the stuffs i have been trying to self learn.

Lesson 1

good morning - ohayo gozaimasu

how are you? / are u healthy ? - O genki desuka

how do you do ? - hajimemashite

my name is .... - watshi no namae wa .... desu

nice to meet you - dozo yuroshiku/ yuroshiku onegaishimasu

thank you - arigato gozaimusa

you're welcome - do itashi mashite

excuse me - sumimasen

i'm sorry - gomenasai

i speak alittle japanese - watashiwa nihongo sukoshi hanashimasu

omg the comp that i have is so freaking slow. Anyways somehow i am being made to eat my words about notbeing able to blog in the office since i am doing this for the 2nd time in a row today. The reason for this is because after half day worth of training to do cross sectioning i am left with another half a day that is free. My supervisor thinks i deserve a rest. So here i am supposedly taking this time to write my report but am actually multi tasking e.g blogging and *ahem* reading some acedemic related stuffs.

I guess i am not complaining since i get to use the comp anyway. So far i have been reading on the GPS stuffs(which i now learnt is different from GPRS one being Global Positioning system and the latter being General Packet Radio service) since i am interested to see if it can be used for one of my ideas. Will see how much i can gather from the internet and if i get any more bright ideas on how i can use it. Feel like perhaps expanding the tracking robot to higher technology. But that is just my thoughts. Nothing t do with the project group that I was with. Though a simple infra red signal was enough fr us to get a HD. But i am not complaining really. And the obstacle avoidance system can use some work as well. It was actually still buggy when we demoed. But that could be due to our infrared reciever which was playing havoc with our microcontroller due to the sucky mounting which is actually my fault anyway. Oops! thought the way we secured it was good enough to avoid short circuits.

As random as it is, since i mam typing this not in a continous time mode, i decided to give a simple japanese lesson today. Not sure who is this going to benefit but at least it will help me to remember some of the stuffs i have been trying to self learn.

Lesson 1

good morning - ohayo gozaimasu

how are you? / are u healthy ? - O genki desuka

how do you do ? - hajimemashite

my name is .... - watshi no namae wa .... desu

nice to meet you - dozo yuroshiku/ yuroshiku onegaishimasu

thank you - arigato gozaimusa

you're welcome - do itashi mashite

excuse me - sumimasen

i'm sorry - gomenasai

i speak alittle japanese - watashiwa nihongo sukoshi hanashimasu

I'm in the office typing this out. Ironically when i complained about not being able to blog when i am in the office it is proven wrong.. the only problem is the comp is freaing slow and more importantly i need to watch my back to make sure no big shots are around since we are only suppose to use the comp for work purpose.

So what should i blog about 2day. Unfortunately i don't have anything light in mind. And i don't feel like blogging about some dark heavy stuffs which i have plenty to since it is alr a dark gloomy morning. And my shoes and socks are all wet from the walking to office. Sigh.....

Anyway i think i didn't maanage to blog about this yesterday, but i manage to score 3 books for around rm 17 plus. Is that a bargain or what. But i know Oon-Ee will digress since 17 not spent is 17 saved as he puts it. But since i am not one to be able to afford books on normal days but always felt like getting some this is really nice. The only problem? It isn't exactly what i long to buy on normal days either. These 3 books are fictions. But one is on a wine making family so i am banking on learning something there another one is i think about a guy who is trying to get ppl to see what a fake life they were living or something, but alas he fell into the trap as well. And the last is a three romance novel in a book kinda thing which i picked up last minute since i saw it at the counter and it cost rm 5. Which i was looking for one cheap one but couldn't find till then. There was a book which i had wanted to get for sometime although i doubt these 2 books were fr the same author. The first one i saw at Times book store and was entitled The dragon lady. The one saw yesterday was the last emperess. The 1st one cost rm 70 which is really alot. And the 2nd one I wasn't sure. That was because it was stated the price as nett rm 43 but i thought it was after discount since there was another book, both hardback mind u, that went for 19.90 with a 70% discount. So i expected it to be after discount. Turns out the 19.90 book only cost rm 6 ish and that means the last emperess book should have cost rm 21 plus. Not dirt cheap but for such a book i would say worth it since it is a non-fiction.

oh well. I guess i will have to get that at normal price once i can afford it and have the time to read it.

Hmmm for some one who dont know what to say when started i sure always manage to yak my way through. Alright thats all for now pictures for la bodega will be up soon

I went for la bodega the 2nd time last Saturday with the old bunch of high school friends ( Daphi, Jenni, Alli, Lyd and Lin Lin) and it was actually a pretty enjoyable experience. I did not blog about the 1st time i was there eventhough initially i was super hyped to go there because i was disappointed with the outcome of our orders.

So anyway, at 645 the entourage arrived at my house. And all six of us were packed into a Wira( it wasn't that bad really. except maybe for alli's butt) And we headed down to Bangsar with Jenni driving. Reached around close to seven i guess. I am not sure since i didnt check the time. And parking in Bangsar apparently is hard to find even at a normal hour minus the drinking ppl. Imagine the havock when the party really begins. I seriously pity the ppl living in Bangsar. Anyways, we finally found a parking somewhere. Everything is a walking distance so we just grabed the next car park we could find. And it was off food hunting. Since La bodega was just one of the many options. There were a few viable restaurant. We almost ended up in a lebanese restaurant which was suppose to have belly dancing, but since it might be spicy and alli's throat wasn't doing too well we decided to pass. Maybe next time. I am always game for something new. So La bodega it was.

I think the question that some of u ppl might be asking is why on earth did i decide to go back there then. The reason is actually that i thought they had a different menu for their bar & restaurant and their deli outlet which is just situated next to each other. Well i found out otherwise. But that they have a seperate menu for main dishes other than paella. But alas we did not go for that. Instead we still ordered the paella which had me dissapointed the 1st time around. And we also got some entrees which we had the waitress recomend. We had the button muchroom sauted with garlic and something i think and some lamb meatballs. And we had that with a basket of very nice soft french bread i think. The bread with the sauce was heavenly. And if u were to eat there and dont want the main meal i think u can get full by having an entree with bread. Which would cost u maybe less than rm 10 minus drinks? . But the bread is for the whole table la. I actually debated whether to order alcoholic drinks since i wasnt sure if they were going drinking later. But i couldn't resist the call of my chardonnay which i really missed for sometime. That set me back rm 16 but was definitely worth it since the wine was pretty smooth. And finally the paella came and lo and behold. It looks absolutely fabulous with clams and prawns and mussels. filling the pan. It wasn't that measily 3 mussles 3 prawn thing that i had the last time we went.














this was what i was expecting.

Anyways we had fun taking pictures and doing a little catching up. We later decided to find a nice place for maybe desert when we stumbled upon this bistro which i forgot the name. The down stairs was something close to a cafe but somehow we ended upstairs because downstairs had quite a few people. But the upstairs was cool too, except what i expected to be desert turned out to be a second glass of alcohol. The ambience upstairs is actually quite nice. And there was even a cute waiter/bartender. I dunno he was doing both. Ah too bad didnt get to chat him up ;).

These are some of the pics we took. The combinations are a bit wierd but then again everyone was a litle lazy to move around to take pictures so where we mostly sat was where we took our pics ;)




































































































































It was fun, but i think i need to conserve money since it is just the begining of the month and i alr splurge 50 plus out of my 200. But maybe going down for drinks again this fri that is if suet wants to go. Someone has gotta teach me the art of mesmerizing a guy enough to buy me drinks ;). ha ha ha. Anyway i think i might just get a beer. But that isnt cheap either. RM 18 wei. Wa seh really need to keep my word on, the hanging at mamak statement liao. At least i can survive with rm 2.

I haven't been online much lately due to tight schedule. I have been out out and out almost everyday. And i seriously can't believe it. At least i can't say working during the hols is a drag, since i still get to do normal crazy holiday stuffs. Only it happens at night and during the weekends as well. It is getting to a point where i wonder when do i get to stay at home to rot.

As for updating this blog with the many interesting things i have done as well as any thoughts i come across, well i really wonder how do all these ppl do it. When i get home, all i can think about is just sitting there and relaxing for a while and then going to sleep. Especially since these three days i have been coming home mostly at 10 - 12. And yes there is work the next morning. So this means the more happening my life is the less this blog gets updated since i wont have the time for it. But i guess for some there is always the time at the office where the computer is readily available. But that is not me.

Anyways, besides monday's dinner, tuesday we decided to try out the latin class that celebrity fitness has to offer since me, suet and mich has 7 days free trial period at celebrity fitness. Class was at 7 so i went right after work. The class was not bad, but it was almost non-stop 1 hr class. Everytime the instructor say " from the top" , I gave michelle a horrified look. Then after that they went for dinner. But as it is with people that met after months of being away, we have lots to talk. But even if that was not the situation we still have lots to talk. So u can imagine. At last I only reached home at 11. Then yesterday was Yam cha session with the old "sisters" Jennifer and all. And we haven't met in ages, so what yam cha session which started at 830 only ended at 12 plus. Ah well, we are girls after all.

After last nights yam cha session did i realize how much i have been drifting and not keeping up with this set of friends. And without realizing it, i have been missing this one part of my old life including the many other parts that I am aware of. It is true that different group of frens brings different things to the table. And at the moment i think my "table" is missing a lot of stuffs. With next year coming, another bunch of things are going to leave my table. With people going off to study and some others starting their career. Its kinda getting depressing. And even if it is an opportunity to go out and gather new stuffs to put on the table e.g new friends. It is not always as easy as it sounds. With tight schedules and all. And somehow i just can't see the bridge that is suppose to lead me to a greener pasture so as to speak. Well either way, life goes on.

So anyway, when i started this post i intended to blog about something that i came across on kenny's site. Seems another blogger has passed on. I went to her blog to see what it was all about and when i read her post, it just feels so wierd that she is no longer here. It just makes me think, imagine if one day it was my time and one of the things which will hold witness to how i lived my life and reflect my pressence on this earth is my blog. And everything that i thought and done was recorded here. What kind of picture have i painted and how permenant is this foot print. It is very hard to imagine that the day that the final post was written might have been days or hours before the blogger left this earth, not knowing that was going to happen.

Death is ever elusive,
coming from no where,
to claim what is deemed due,
with a beat of the heart,
and all is over,
no more heart beat,
no more breathe,
all is cold and all is quiet,
but only for the sound of grief,
that lingers....